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Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Things my Mother taught me: Reflections on a life lived and poured out.


Things my Mother taught me: Reflections on a life lived and poured out. 

As I sit down to write this, my Mother Joyce Marilyn Johnson (Belcher) is lying in her Hospice bed in the Waupaca, WI hospital. Her kidneys are failing her and the clock on what are the final moments of her too short life has begun to tick down. We all knew this time was coming when we started to see her health slipping away all too fast just over 2 years ago. Now it is here, and so also begins that strange time in ones life when all sorts of people you've known and loved over the years make their journey to your bedside for one last conversation.

I'll start as far back as I can. I first met my mom on a wintry day in December 1980. It was just a few days before Christmas and suddenly there I was face to face with this amazing woman. She said my name was to be Britton James. Named after her father Emerson William Britton Belcher who had just past away a few months prior to my arrival. In my ever thoughtful manner I had shown up just in time to be her Christmas present that year. Of course no one remembers the day they were born, which is probably a good thing. I hear it's a pretty traumatic event in ones life. You get pulled from this place where your every need is being met 24/7, and thrust into a cold world where all you know how to do is scream. And if you're as lucky as I was, you get a Mom. Someone to wrap you up, tell you its going to be ok, begin the long and yet suddenly too short process of taking care of your every need for the next 18 years and beyond.

I'm sure those first few years of mine weren't all that easy for my mom, after all I was number 4 of 4 boys. She'd had plenty of experience raising boys by the time I came along. But still besides me there were 3 others she had to deal with. We lived in Milwaukee Wisconsin then, and my Father was the Pastor of a Church. So naturally we all spent a lot of time at Church. Normally during Church I would sit with mom, fall asleep on the pew next her, and wake up usually with my face covered in a weird fabric pattern and slightly wet from drooling all over myself. A few times I would sit on the other side of the Church with my friends. If we were having too good a time sitting next to each other and not behaving, I would suddenly hear this "snap" from the other side of the Church. I'd look at Mom and she'd give that look that said "you sit down and be quiet right this second or I will take you outside and spank your misbehaving bottom into tomorrow". So I did what her eyes told me to. Except for that one time I didn't and she held up her end of the bargain. It was after one of those times that I prayed to accept Christ for the first time as a kid. Maybe I knew what I was doing , or maybe I was really convinced I had been a bad kid by not listening to my mom, and only Jesus could save me now.

My brothers were all old enough to attend the school at our Church but the school didn't have a Kindergarten, so I had to go to the Public schools. I went to school one morning and as can happen when you're in Kindergarten you get to school and suddenly you don't feel too good. I remember puking , I don't know where, next thing I'm being looked at by someone and suddenly they're telling me my mom is there to take me home. They tell me to go outside and she'll take me home. I walk outside, I think I was alone, and there's this Blue Buick sitting there. I'm just a kid, but I think that's not our car, man, I must be really sick because it looks like my mom stole someones car just to come pick me up from school! Well it was our car, sort of. Dad had pledged to raise a certain amount of money for the Church Building program and buying and reselling cars was how he was going to raise the money. This blue Buick was a car he had for a few days before flipping it for more money. Still it was pretty cool to have your mom show up seemingly out of nowhere. And in some strange car come to rescue you and take you home and put you to bed and make you anything you want. Mom's are incredible. I bet she would have stolen that car if she had to.

Sometime after that we left Milwaukee and moved up to Waupaca into an unfinished house in the middle of winter with no heat. I'm sure now that we were breaking all kinds of code and other laws. But hey, sometimes you do what you have to. I never remember mom ever complaining that she didn't have carpet, or a complete kitchen or walls or a furnace. It was like living on the frontier, complete with a trek the outhouse if you had to go in the middle of the night. An outhouse that my mother built. She was Canadian and I think that helped make her a little bit tougher. She was never frazzled by anything, she took life as it came to her day after day. We eventually got the house up to code, and had an nice place to live. It was really the house that God built. People would just show up and say, "hey I'm a professional this or that and heard you need help doing what I do, so I'll help you for free." That outhouse was built so well, it stood until earlier this year when my oldest brother ripped it down and burnt it up. She built it well.

After living in the half way finished house for almost two years, Dad finally got a call from the Lord and a Church in of all places, Salem, Ohio. So we moved down there for three years, somewhat regularly coming back to Wisconsin. I think mom enjoyed not living in a construction site, and they had some people renting the house and at the same time making further progress on it for us. This was a very fast 3 years during which a lot happened. My oldest brother went to Springfield, MO and he's still there today. My second oldest brother got his first of what would be countless jobs. My third oldest brother discovered he liked playing basketball, except on the carpeted gym floor at the Church School. I, well, what did I learn? I learned the important things from my mom like keep your mouth over your plate when you're eating so you don't spill on your nice Sunday pants. I learned that my mom lived another life as a school teacher when she substituted at the Church school one day. She didn't get my class but some friends of mine instead. They all said she was really good. Its always a little shocking when you first realize that your mom is more than just your mom. When you suddenly wake up to the fact that shes like this real person that had a life before you ever showed up. Almost makes you feel guilty like maybe I interrupted something she was doing. It was about this time, that I started doing my own laundry and taking more independent care of myself. Maybe that way mom can get back to whatever it was she was doing before I started distracting her with things like tying my shoes for the 50th time.

Eventually we moved back to Waupaca. For some reason we were all ok with it. I'm sure it was just God moving us on, trying to show us more. So on we went. We moved in the middle of the school year and mom home schooled us through that year, and the older two brothers that were left eventually both graduated and moved out. Since I was the only one left I decided to stay with the homeschooling and drive around the country with Mom and Dad as they spoke and sang at Churches from Baltimore to Wyoming to Canada. Somewhere in there I helped mom record her first studio record down the road from our house with our neighbor Dale. I was sort of the Executive Producer of the Album. I think it was some of her best work. We literally traveled and stayed in almost every kind of situation. And as always mom never complained about where we were. So neither did I. We just tried to love people, and see if we could figure out if there was one  special person we were sent to that town for. One place we stopped at in Iowa, we stayed with the Pastor of the church we were visiting and his family. It was plainly obvious they were the ones that needed the help. The house was breaking down all around, Dad and I fixed several broken things, while mom went shopping for new Towels and Bath items. The ones they had been using were worn through. Any money the church gave to us that week, pretty much went right back to the Pastor and his family. Eventually I started high school and stopped travelling so much with them. Mom and Dad both said they missed me, but they understood.

 When I was in High school I was helping my dad build a shed in the back yard, learning the finer points of roofing. What was mom doing? She was splitting wood, with an ax! That's right , she was so tough she split wood by hand with an ax. Somehow or another though she accidentally moved her splitting area too close to a clothes line. It was like slow motion as I looked up from where I was on the roof of the shed with Dad, she was in mid swing, the ax handle hit the line, rebounded back at her and hit her square in the head. She was on the ground rolling around in pain by the time we got down to her. Miraculously all she ended up with was a headache and a bump on her head. No blood, no vomiting, I'm not even sure she had a concussion. She made today's NFL players look like whiny little kids.  Did I mention Canadians are tough?

I graduated and moved myself to the big city, Madison. Mom and Dad kept preaching and singing wherever they could. They were getting fewer and fewer places to go to though, and this I think was hard for both of them. Feeling like they had things to do, but no place to do them. At the same time Mom started to really miss her Canadian family. She hadn't been back to see them in more than a decade. So my brothers and I got together and bought them a trip out West to visit her brothers. They toured the north part of North America for a couple weeks, and Mom still talks about how fun it was to go home and see her big brothers. She received telephone calls from almost all of them just today. Some of them she hadn't spoken too again in a very long time. Each time she hung up, both she and brother were in tears. A lot of time, distance and still much love between these big boys, and their only little sister.

Mom grew up in British Columbia Canada. The north part of the Pacific Northwest which is a truly gorgeous part of the world and a place I could easily call home without much effort.  She had 3 older brothers. Her mother passed away from a brain hemorrhage or aneurysm when she was only 7 years old. Naturally she has little memories of the woman who was her mother. After her mother passed, her father (my namesake) put an ad in the paper that read. "Seeking a live in housekeeper and nanny , object matrimony". Clearly he preferred the direct approach. Amazingly upon reading the ad, mom's step mother knew instantly that she was to marry this man. So she did. My mom went on to a 3 year college in Canada and got her teaching degree. After graduating she packed an old steamer trunk, and moved to the other side of Canada and got a job teaching in a little school house in Newfoundland. Making very little money for over a year she met another teacher that told her if she went to the States and did one more year of school and got her Bachelors, she could double her income. So she found Central Bible College in Springfield, MO, applied and went. There she met dad and the rest as they say is history.

So now mom waits, she waits for her body to wear out. She waits for Jesus to call her home. At least in the mean time she has lots of visitors to stop in or call. Lots of people to remember good times with, pray with, and just sit with her.

This is the least I can do to honor her, show her what she has meant to me. Show her that her life had meaning. Show her that she did the best she could, which to me, was pretty close to perfect.

I love you mom, I will miss you.


Yours,

Britton

Thursday, September 29, 2011

A Dog's Purpose

A Dog's Purpose: A Novel for Humans


Written By: W. Bruce Cameron

Read By: George K. Wilson

Background: Ok so I like dogs and I happen to enjoy reading about them. So sue me. I can't help it. There's just something about these furry lemon brain animals that intrigues, entertains, challenges, and ultimately fulfills me. 
I've seen this book floating around online for awhile, probably since it was released last year. I didn't really know at all what it was about. But when Adam Curry from the No Agenda podcast recommended it. I had to give it a listen. And if this book could turn the Podfather himself into a "Blubbering Idiot", crying his eyes out. Then it had to be worth reading.

The Read:
So first of all I really enjoyed the book. At least in parts. The way the author went at writing this is very shall we say, different. He had to have spent alot of time trying to figure out the best way to convey the Purpose of a Dog. Most "dog books" you read will generally center on one dog and the story of his or her life. Like Old Yeller, the "Best Doggone Dog in the World", or a group of dogs and cats like Shadow and Chance from "Homeward Bound". (Incidentally Shadow from Homeward Bound is the standard by which all Goldens ought to be judged. ) You get the idea. These kinds of stories follow the life of one dog from birth to death and normally some type of heroics ensues in the middle somewhere.
That is sortof what the author here does. Except not really. You see, I'm onto Mr. Cameron. He wanted to tell the story of how a dog finds his purpose. But there's alot of different dogs out there. All living in different situations, some good, some bad. So how does a dog in a bad situation have a purpose? Or how does a dog in a good situation have a purpose? So instead of writing multiple books, he writes four stories about one dog that's actually four different dogs.

Throughout the book he covers 4 different scenarios.

First, a dog born a feral stray.
Second, a dog born as a Golden Retriever from a proper breeder. That becomes a loving pet.
Third, a German Shepherd search and rescue dog.
Fourth, a Black Lab from champion lines that is abused and neglected.

Here's the odd story mechanism part. All four scenarios involve the dog having the same consciousness. Essentially the dog is constantly being reincarnated. The interesting part is the dog is aware that he's had previous lives. I'm sure he thought about just writing four different dog stories, and turning this into a collection of essays from various dogs, but it would have been much harder to tie the stories together somehow and give it an overall theme.

The best sections are section two and three. One and four are just ok. I mean they're important to the overall story, but I could have lived without them. The stories with the dog as Bailey the Golden Retriever and Elle the German Shepherd work really well on their own, and each I feel could have been expanded into its own book.  

Probably the best thing about this book is that it's written entirely from the dogs perspective. Everything is described in painstaking details the way a dog would see it. Mr. Cameron helps you really understand that a dogs world is 75% smell. This is of course why they smell EVERYTHING.

The Review:
George K. Wilson did a phenomenal job narrating this book. There are human characters to voice, and each one gets a unique voice of their own. And it can't be easy narrating the thoughts of a puppy, but somehow he does it masterfully. He's never overly cheesy sounding, and when you're voicing a dogs thoughts, I would think it would be hard to NOT sound cheesy. This is by far one of the best narration jobs I've ever heard. Kudos to Mr. Wilson.

Overall I really enjoyed the book. It was an easy read. And yes there are parts that will turn you into a "Blubbering Idiot" if you have a soft spot deep in your heart somewhere for dogs. The story about Bailey the Golden Retriever and his boy Ethan is proof positive that every young boy needs to grow up with a Golden.

Rating 5/5

-B

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Until Tuesday

Until Tuesday: A Wounded Warrior and the Golden Retriever Who Saved Him

Written & Read by: Luis Carlos Montalvan


Background:
I saw this book when my latest Audible Credit came available and instantly grabbed it. As mentioned in the first book I blogged, "Through a Dogs Eyes" I am a Service Dog Trainer. So I have a natural affinity towards all things concerning Service Dogs.  Capt. Montalvan is a two term Veteran of the War in Iraq, a highly decorated leader, who during an attack while on post suffered severe injuries. He damaged several vertebrae in his spine, a massive concussion causing brain injury, and several deep cuts. His experiences ultimately led to his post service diagnosis of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, or PTSD.  PTSD is a mental disorder that is just beginning to be understood by Doctors and the Public alike. There are many people who want to claim that Vets or other individuals with PTSD are faking it, just to take advantage of the VA Medical system, and get access to powerful drugs. The common line of thought I've heard is something like this. "Vets with PTSD are just weak minded and need to toughen up and get back to a normal life. If WWII Vets, and Vietnam Vets, could re-enter society without drugs or service dogs, then why do these Iraq and Afghanistan Vets need them? Clearly they are just lazy and need to get off their collective butts and get about a normal life. "  It is this kind of thinking that is leading to ever higher Suicide rates in our Military today. We must take care of our Veterans, they sacrifice everything to take care of us, I think it literally is the least we can do.

Normal life for people suffering with PTSD simply does not exist anymore. Plus our understanding of how War works needs to change. Every other war from Vietnam to the Civil War had one thing in common, a named and identifiable enemy. This is not true in the so called "War on Terror". When you're not fighting a Country or other definable Enemy this completely changes how your soldiers have to fight. In todays Wars we are fighting a nameless faceless enemy. Everyone a US Soldier encounters while on a patrol is a potential threat. So for days/weeks/months/years, these guys and girls we send to fight our battles live on the edge and have to constantly judge their situation. Is that stray soda can actually a bomb? Is this person I'm arresting actually a terrorist or just desperate to return to his family and provide for their needs? In Capt. Montalvan's case, a group of Iraqis that his unit had trusted turned on them and attacked them in cold blood.
How does anyone living in that kind of world, where everything and everyone is out to get you come back and try to live a "normal" life?

Stacking PTSD on top of physical disabilities just complicates things even further. For Vets who have lost limbs, or can no longer walk, or like Capt. Montalvan have hidden injuries, a service dog can be that key piece to gaining some of that normalcy back.  I've seen it time after time, and every time I'm blown away by what these highly skilled dogs are capable of. From simple things like retrieving shoes or keys, to complicated tasks like opening doors or helping undress, these dogs can do it all. And they LOVE IT.

For me the most difficult part of reading "Until Tuesday" was hearing Capt. Montalvan's accounts of discrimination against him and Tuesday. Pretty much every day he will enter a public place with Tuesday at his side, and be told to leave. Since he lives in New York City, he rides public transportation and will almost always be hassled by bus drivers when trying to enter a City Bus. These episodes, while frustrating enough for anyone with a disability, can be the beginnings of a complete melt down for someone with PTSD. It's stories like this that make me want to keep training these dogs, and keep educating the public everywhere that these dogs aren't just well trained pets, they are Professionals in every sense of the word. They get more training, more attention and more life experiences than any 5 pet dogs will ever have in their whole lives. Service dogs are like the Special Forces of the Military, they are the best of the best. Which is why most Service dog organizations have about a 50% placement rate. The other 50% just don't have what it takes for the rigors of the human world.

So here is my challenge for you. All 5 of you who might be reading this. Whenever you see someone in a wheel chair, say Hello to them. You might be the only person who acknowledges them that day.  And if you see someone with a Service Dog being discriminated against, take the time to stand up for them.

The Review:
I loved "Until Tuesday" , it's a great story, and one that should be shared far and wide. As a Service Dog trainer myself, I hope to someday get the chance to meet Capt. Montalvan and Tuesday. The book is well written and well read by the author. I'm so glad that he read the book himself. My only criticism would be for the production people. There were alot of times when he was reading where you could tell they made a cut, and edited in a re-reading. His voice sometimes changed so much it sounded like another person reading it. After awhile I could tell that it wasn't another person, it just changed the flow of the Audiobook. 


Rating 5/5

-B

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Love Wins , a review less about the book more about the Author



Love Wins


Written & Read by: Rob Bell


Background: First of all let me warn you, this may be a longer post. I'm going to take a couple days and work on this one, instead of writing it inside the space of 20 minutes. Also, I’d like to note that I have never met Rob Bell. I have been to his Church in Grandville, MI called Mars Hill Bible Church a few times. The only staff Pastor I’ve had any interaction with was Matt Krik, who helped start Mars Hill with Rob in 1999. Other than visiting there, my interaction and experience with Rob and other speakers at MHBC has been thru Rob’s books, two of his speaking tours and the weekly sermons available for download at Marshill.org.

A bit of history on me:
I grew up a Pastor's kid, and not just any Pastor's Kid, but a Pentecostal Pastor's Kid. PK's everywhere see and learn a lot of things about life and people that I believe most other kids just don't experience when growing up. There can be good and bad in this. On the good side, you're always first in the food lines at Weddings! On the bad side, it's not uncommon for a PK to grow up, and completely rebel against everything their Pastor parent stands for. Even going as far as completely disconnecting from the family. For the record, I don't think I ever rebelled. I was the youngest of 4 boys, and generally lived a low maintenance childhood and teenage years. Being the youngest afforded me the opportunity to travel around the country with my parents once Dad felt called to be an Evangelist instead of just Pastoring one church. Visiting all these churches all around the country I learned a lot about this thing we call "The Church", and Church Business. It really is a business in a lot of ways. Among the saddest things I witnessed were a shocking amount of Churches being led by men who have no leadership skills and are almost incapable of fulfilling the basic role of a Pastor. In other cases there were also many Churches where the Church leadership is completely held under the thumb of a wealthy family in the Church. More often than not, God was clearly not in charge of His Church. People were turning it into a social club or a woe is me club or a give more money so we can build a nicer building club.

Finally I finished High School and moved to the Madison, WI area. My original motivation for moving was to help my former Youth Pastor at my church in Waupaca, WI start up a new Church in Madison. For the first 3 maybe 4 years of the Church I never missed a Sunday. I was the Tech guy, and handled everything Technical on Sunday mornings. This was hard work because during those years we were meeting in a movie theater. Which required us to arrive 3 hours before service to setup, and tear down everything before the afternoon movies started showing. On more than one occasion we were putting things away while the previews were running. It was a lot of work, but I really felt like I was serving God in a useful way. The church struggled to attract and retain people though, in the theater days we never really grew much over 30 or 40 people. This has been the story for many Startup Churches in Dane County Wisconsin. It’s been labeled one of the hardest to evangelize locations in Wisconsin, if not the Midwest.

Having done a tour of Churches across the country I felt fairly confident that I knew what it would take to make a Church a success. I would probably say that this gave me a certain air of "know-it-all-ism", and that I've heard everything. The Church we were starting was modeled after a Church in Barrington, IL called "Willow Creek". Willow's Pastor Bill Hybels pioneered the idea of a "Seeker Sensitive" Sunday morning service. Essentially they would do Live Drama's , the band would play covers of popular radio songs that fit the theme of the week, and the sermons' or "message's" would be practical in nature. Message's were usually about things like how to raise happy kids, and how to have a satisfying Marriage, or how to be happy at your job. For any in depth bible study you had to join a Small Bible Study Group, or attend a Mid Week Church service. The formula worked for Willow for many years, they were one of the largest Evangelical Churches in North America, and still are. In recent years though, Willow did a survey of their members. They discovered in this that a large portion of their membership of the Church did NOT believe in certain foundational principles of Christianity. I haven’t been to Willow in a number of years, but I have read that they are slowly abandoning their “Seeker” method and doing more Bible Study on Sundays. I think this is excellent by the way.

I really did enjoy serving the Church in those early years. And I am grateful for the friendships and relationships that came out of that time in my life. I still have many life long friends that I met because of being involved with this Church. And it's the Church my wife and I still attend today. I count my Pastor among one of my greatest friends, and even though we tend to disagree on some things more than maybe we did in the past, my relationship with him is one I hope to maintain the rest of my days. Love ya Mick.

Once I met the girl who would become my wife, I started to realize that maybe I didn't know it all. As shocking as that was. And that maybe there should be more to following Christ than just falling asleep in the Sound Booth every Sunday. As my pastor kept reminding me, I needed to have some kind of devotional life (prayer and studying of God’s Word).  I knew I needed to find someone to help me dig my faith into something solid. Something that was real , and a different voice to listen to. What I really needed was to actually figure out what I believed, and why I believed it. I honestly couldn’t tell you why I was a Christian at this point in my life. Except to say that it’s the only thing I’ve ever known. This is where Rob Bell comes in.

My first encounter with Rob was his Nooma Video called Noise. I knew I liked this guy, but had no idea who he was. It was late in 2003 that I found Mars Hill Bible Church's website, and downloaded my first sermon of Rob's. It would be the first of hundreds of messages that I would listen too from MHBC. Finally I had found someone who preached the Bible in a way that made actual sense to me. It wasn't just “this is what the Bible says, so just do it”. Rob actually taught me things about where the Bible came from, why the Old Testament is important and relevant. Rob also explains a lot of the Jewishness of the Bible, and how to the modern day reader we miss a lot of things simply because we’re not Jewish people living in the first century. Mostly he taught me that there's more to being a Christian than just managing my sins. This, was a big deal to me.
In his book "The Divine Conspiracy" Dallas Willard talks about how the Church has turned Jesus Gospel into "Gospel's of Sin Management". This is where the Church focuses almost completely on getting people to feel bad about their sin and repent, they forget about everything else Jesus taught. I think this is why Rob was such a breath of fresh air for me. Rob didn't get up every Sunday and make it his goal to guilt people into Heaven. Instead he focused on talking about who Jesus was, and what He did to serve people, and why it mattered. This combined with stories of people at MHBC and the things they were doing to show the world who Jesus was, really hit home for me. Finally it felt like I found a Church that actually was showing the world what it meant to truly follow Christ. I as I dived deeper into my faith, I found that by not focusing completely on my own sins and instead living to serve others, the sin problems I had sort of just fell away. It’s hard to explain, but I think this is why Rob isn’t a Hellfire and Brimstone preacher. He’s found and I agree, that if you as a Church just are constantly telling people what NOT to do, they worry so much about what they’re doing that nothing else gets done. It creates people with a stagnated faith that         isn’t     going             anywhere. I would have been one of those people. Sure some people might thrive under a Church that is always correcting them, but I would say that is the exception and not the rule.

Instead I learned that by serving others, serving “the least of these” making my life about that, made life livable. Since I was living in the Grace God gave me, I was actually free to live.

Criticism:
Like any Megachurch Pastor, Rob’s success has opened the flood gates of Religious Critics. Just Google his name and you’ll be sure to find plenty of bloggers eager to call him a heretic, and ready to burn him at the stake. Rob has been lumped in with a group that has either been labeled or labeled themselves the “Emerging Church”.  Personally Rob has never claimed membership to any Emerging Church organizations. But because he has friendships and guest speakers at his church like Brian McLaren (some people call him the Father of the Emerging Church) Chris Seay, Erwin McManus, Dr. Greg Boyd, Dr. Ray Vanderlaan, Shane Hipps (MHBC’s newest Teaching Pastor) , and Shane Claiborne among others. Rob’s grouping into the Emerging Church is implied.

Having listened to Rob and many of the guests that Mars Hill has brought in over the years, I honestly don’t know why he’s as big of a lightening rod as some people like to make him out to be. I do know that many of his critics love to take 30 second sound bytes of his sermons, and simply stretch something he says and take it in a complete 180 from where he was going if you listen to the whole thing. He will often bring up something just to make you think about it, he forces you to do your own research. He doesn’t just tell you what to believe, or “spoon feed” you. Some will do line by line critiques of his sermons, and because of his asking questions about normally off-topic items, it’s easy to make it look like Rob Bell is something other than he really is.

The biggest thing people love to complain about Rob is his stance on the Biblical Doctrine of Hell. Or as some would say, the lack thereof.  

This is one of the main focuses of his latest book called “Love Wins: A Book About Heaven, Hell, and the Fate of Every Person Who Ever Lived.” In this latest book , Rob’s position on Heaven and Hell has not changed since the day I first started listening to him. So a lot of this book to anyone who’s followed him at all won’t be anything new.

In his book Velvet Elvis and again in Love Wins, he lays this out in some detail, but in a sermon he gave in 2007 he detailed his thoughts on this even more. Basically Rob believes that Jesus talked a lot about Hell. But if you go back and look at the original source material for all modern translations of the Bible, each time Jesus is translated to use the word “Hell” he’s using one of a few variations on the word. And the word Jesus most often used is the word “gehenna”. Wikipedia’s Definition follows. 
Gehenna (Greek γέεννα), Gehinnom (Rabbinical Hebrew: גהנום, גהנם,) and Yiddish Gehinnam, are terms derived from a place outside ancient Jerusalem known in the Hebrew Bible as the Valley of the Son of Hinnom (Hebrew: גֵיא בֶן־הִנֹּם or גיא בן-הינום); one of the two principal valleys surrounding the Old City.In the Hebrew Bible, the site was initially where apostate Israelites and followers of various Ba'als and false gods, including Moloch, sacrificed their children by fire (2 Chr. 28:3, 33:6; Jer. 7:31, 19:2-6). In both Rabbinical Jewish and Early Christian writing, Gehenna was a destination of the wicked. This is different from the more neutral Sheol/Hades, the abode of the dead, though English Bibles traditionally translate both with the Anglo-Saxon concept Hell.”

So according to Rob, when Jesus says “Hell” he’s talking to the Jews of his time about the real physical place that all of them were familiar with. Rob never goes so far as to say that the classical understanding of Hell, that of the lake of fire prepared for the devil and his angels does not exist. He is often accused of that, but that is soundly untrue. Rob does however dodge that subject, and to my knowledge does not have a public or published statement on that doctrine. Rob’s non answer to this issue and others is what angers many of his critics. It seems that everyone just wants him to just take a side. It is however not his goal to create another systematic theology.  Even in Love Wins, he doesn’t address the Lake of Fire which is the final destination of Satan and his Demons per the book of Revelation.

Here’s my thought on why Rob stays vague on many Theological concepts. First of all, unless you’re a Christian who’s been around the Church most of your life, you’re not going to even know what any of these things are. Today’s unbelievers just aren’t aware of doctrinal disputes. And I think they’re better for it. Today’s unbelievers are more focused on what kind of person Christianity makes you and less of what you believe in. Is this compromising the Gospel? Or just majoring on the majors that people care about today? In Love Wins, I think Rob makes an excellent point. Some Pastors who tell people that if someone died without knowing Jesus as their Savior that therefore that person is in Hell for all Eternity. Pastors that teach this, in some cases seem to lack tact. Even Jesus had more tact then to tell a gentile something like that. Don’t get me wrong, Jesus was strict and firm, but most of the time he was being strict was when he was teaching the Religious Leaders of the day an object lesson. I don’t believe you’re going to encourage ANYONE to follow God by telling them that they will be separated from their loved ones for all eternity unless they get their loved ones saved too. And if someone’s loved ones are already dead, then there is no hope.

Because we live in such a connected world it seems like a more tragic world than ever before. We know about disasters the moment they happen, we have statistics constantly thrown at us about starving kids. Then a family member gets diagnosed with cancer. It feels like never ending despair. This is why I think it’s critical that Christians today focus on the HOPE that Jesus is. People need to believe in hope, and if Christians today are too focused on dashing that hope by pronouncing eternal judgment on someone (which I thought was God’s job) , then the whole Church is going to suffer. That kind of damage can sometimes be irreparable.

Popularity:
Ok, here’s my real defense of why I think guys like Rob are being well accepted today. Studies are all over the place showing that Christianity in America is on the decline. Fewer people are attending church, and fewer people are accepting Christ in America. Churches are also getting more condensed. People are leaving small Churches and moving to Mega Churches that offer multiple service times with different music, and excellent coffee.

 Why is this? I think there are two, maybe three reasons. Maybe more.

Reason #1:
The Internet Age
Right around the late 90’s the Internet age was really exploding in America. Broadband internet access was opening people up to more and more information. And suddenly for the first time ever, people could learn anything they wanted to, any time they wanted to, for the monthly cost of their Internet connection. They no longer had to go to a local church to hear about God, they could do it all online. People needed the local Church less and less for Spiritual wisdom, instead they were using it as just a local social club. And many Churches responded to this by teaching less about the Bible and more about everyday life. What I think the Church didn’t realize was also happening, was that as Christians were abandoning the local Church, non-believers online were also finding ways to share their bad experiences in local churches. Around the late 90’s I found a website created by a former Christian, called ExChristian. The guy who started it, had several really bad experiences with really bad Pastors in several Churches. He got a lot of bad advice, and honestly I couldn’t blame him for losing his faith. At the time, I worked in Internet Support so I literally spent all day every day on the internet, and site after site, day after day, I found person after person who was losing their faith. The more the internet seemed to spread, the more the Church just didn’t seem to pay attention to it. Because of all this free and accessible information about Christianity was online it made it even easier for people to start questioning it. More and more people were asking questions about Christianity, and more and more the Church couldn’t seem to come up with answers. The people I was encountering just were not buying the whole line of “ the Bible says it so it must be true” anymore. People needed hard and fast evidence. And the Church as I knew it was not providing it.

Reason #2.
September 11th, 2001.
Shortly on the heels of the Internet revolution was the events of 9/11. I was at work at the Internet Help Desk that day, and every single call I took I could hear TV’s on in the background with news reports. Everyone was in shock.
It was a tragic day, one that I won’t forget. But how did it affect the Church? I think the events itself may not have directly affected Christianity, but how the media and others responded certainly did. I think what happened in short is, someone put the idea out there that, this act of Terrorism was done by Religious Fundamentalists, and if Islamic Fundamentalist’s were capable of this , then what were Christians capable of? Christians certainly didn’t help things by keeping up the whole “War Metaphor” rhetoric. And the Rev. Jerry Falwel claiming that the reason God let it happen in the first place was God allowing judgement on America for Homosexual activity. Which was crazy for him to say.
9/11 was a turning point in many regards. The events of that day have been used as the excuses for two wars, and for turning American Civil liberties over in the name of security. I will admit, that before 9/11 I had no idea how the Muslim faith was any different than Christianity. I just new from my growing up as a PK that since it wasn’t based on the Bible, therefore it was a false religion and should be ignored. I knew more about Mormonism and the Jehovahs Witnesses, than Islam.
The world has gone through some major changes, faster than ever before. I think even from a technology perspective our development has far outpaced what it has ever been. We’re doing everything faster. Including turning people away from Christ.
Because of this, it’s difficult to meet someone who doesn’t already have an opinion formed about Jesus or Christianity. They’ve either tried it once already and gave up, or they know someone who was abused by it, or worse they’ve been abused by it themselves.

Reason #3

The Magic Sales Pitch

 I would argue that the solution presented by Church professionals over the last 10 to 20 years has been, “The Church in America needs better Marketing”. Somewhere along the line we stopped talking about Jesus & the Bible, and instead focused on getting people to agree with or disagree with 5 or 6 spiritual principles based on Bible verses. And somehow if you agreed with these, then in infomercial speak “Today Only” you too can be saved. Instead of having an encounter with the Living Christ, and being transformed by Him, we turned Jesus into a Product with a sales pitch.

“Have you filled your life with the hollow things of Sex, and Drugs, and Money? Have these things left you empty and unfulfilled? Try Jesus! He’ll fill the circle shaped hole in your heart and make you truly satisfied and happy.” It’s like reading the script from a Saturday Morning TV Infomercial isn’t it?  And if anyone has ever bought anything from an Infomercial, 9 times out of 10 the product is being sold on TV because no one in their right mind would ever buy the item unless it was pitched this way. So why have we done this to Jesus. Why have we turned the Savior of the World into a Magic Bullet? It’s no wonder people have tried Jesus and given up. They were sold something that didn’t work.

This is why I think Rob is appealing to the size of audience he’s reaching today. He’s not following the trend of turning Jesus into a Multi-Level-Marketing product. Instead he’s explaining to people who Jesus is, and why Jesus calls us to care about the poor, the slave, and the guy in prison. In my view he is selling a version of Jesus that more closely matches the Jesus we read about in the Bible.

Reason #4

Caring for the Earth

For Rob, and many other teachers today Heaven isn’t about escaping this world to go to a better place. Or “Evacuation Theology” as he terms it. It’s about doing the Lord’s Prayer, and helping to make things “on earth as it is in Heaven”.  Bishop N.T. Wright says it this way “Heaven is important but it’s not the end of the world”. In the end of time as we know it, Rob believes that God will not ultimately completely destroy the Earth and make a new one. Again, our modern translations of the English Bible have missed something. The term used in Revelations of a “New Heaven, and New Earth”, is not talking about a Brand New Heaven and a Brand New Earth, rather it’s really saying that God is going to Restore the Earth to what it once was. And once the Earth is Remade in this way, then the City of Heaven will crash into Earth and the two will be one. And God’s dwelling will be among His people.  

For my whole life I had always been told that the reason we need to get as many people saved as possible before the Rapture happens, is because God is going to destroy this world completely. Crush it like a piece of paper and throw it away. Then start with a clean one. This is not how original manuscript copies of the New Testament describe it according to Rob and Theologians like N.T. Wright. In their view, God would not destroy something that He has called good.  I must admit that after considering both sides of this, I have to agree with Rob. It doesn’t make a lot of sense. If God’s just going to destroy everything, then why would He bother waiting at all? Why didn’t he ignore Moses’ pleading and just wipe out the nation of Israel like He wanted too? Why let time go on for so long, and let the fates of Billions upon Billions of people hang in the balance? It just doesn’t seem to fit.

What Rob points out though, and I completely agree with is this. People who’ve grown up believing that God is going to crush this world eventually anyways tend to not really care much about this place that they call home. I know I used to be one of them. There is a song by a really bad 80’s Christian Punk Rock band called One Bad Pig, the title was “Ice Cream Sunday” (I think?) the line in the chorus went something like this, “The world is like an Ice Cream Sunday, it’s all gonna melt one day”. Suffice it to say this sums up a lot of Christians views on taking care of the planet. They ignore all the stories in the Bible about being good stewards with the resources God has given us. Instead those stories are taught that we should steward our money and talents, not the planet we live on.  Pile this on with the many other reasons of why many people do not believe in Christianity today.

Conclusion:

So am I a “Rob Bell fanboy”? I guess you could say that. But I don’t automatically agree with everything the man says just because he said it. I think he’s a gifted creative communicator. He’s an artist at heart, and artists are usually misunderstood by the general public.

I think if he really was such a terrible influence on people, Pastors like Ed Dobson, Jeff Manion, John Ortberg, Richard Mouw (the President of Rob’s Seminary), among others would not speak at MHBC and thereby not support him.

I think the most disappointing thing with the release of Love Wins, is that Zondervan felt it didn’t matchup with their mission statement. This is why Rob went to Harper One. I really don’t think it was a book that was completely at odds with their mission. I think they just wanted to protect their image, since they hold the Copyrights to the NIV Bible.

I don’t believe that he’s a “Universalist” and he himself has denied this accusation. I don’t think he is hurting the Church or Christianity. I think both of those entities do a good enough job hurting themselves because they’re both made up of imperfect people.

I think that his second book “Sex God”, is his best work yet. And the chapter on lust is probably one of the best chapters ever written on the topic by anyone. And I applaud MHBC for being the single Church in America to take the guys from xxxchurch.com under it’s wing and help them spread the message of how the Adult Entertainment industry is destroying this country.

So that’s it. That’s my story, part of it at least. I think I could’ve gone on writing this for months. I’m sorry for the sloppiness. I’m no professional writer. I’m just a guy, with a commute that listens to books, and has a blog.

P.S. I enjoy that Rob reads all his books in Audio format. Again, I think you get so much more out of a book when the Author reads it to you.

-B













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Friday, March 11, 2011

The Big Short

The Big Short: Inside the Doomsday Machine

Written By: Michael Lewis

Read By: Jesse Boggs



Background: After reading this, I feel like I know way more about Collateralized Debt Obligations , Credit Default Swaps, and the Sub-Prime Mortgage meltdown then I probably should. Michael Lewis' recounting of the time leading up to the financial system melt down in 2008 is an incredibly detailed recounting of the events.  Lewis comes at this from 3 different financial professionals perspectives. All of whom seemed to see the melt down happening years before everything blew up. And all of whom were able to profit from the melt down by shorting the sub-prime mortgage bond market.

It really was staggering how the big banks like Goldman Sachs, Morgan Stanley, Bank of America, AIGFP (the Financial Products division of AIG) were simply creating Bonds literally out of Crappy mortgages, then getting the rating agency's to rate them at AAA , which essentially made investors feel like they couldn't lose. So naturally they had to create more bad mortgages to create more bonds to increase sales to investors. In the end, no one has gone to prison for any of this. It was all legal. Morally and ethically wrong, but legal.

I've been interested in the American Financial system ever since reading up on the founding of the Federal Reserve System. It was clear when the system was founded that large banking families wanted to control this country. And the events of 2008 clearly show that they are still in control. Except now their control has spread to financial markets worldwide. Scary stuff.

It's also interesting just how close we came to a complete collapse of the Dollar. It could have happened , but someone , somewhere decided that it wasn't the time yet. I wonder when and if that time will come. I would think it has to happen eventually. After all, the principle of "what goes up, must come down" is never wrong. They can keep propping the dollar up, but eventually the props will fail and the system will come crashing down. I don't think this will be the end of the world though. I think it will simply usher in a new currency, something more universal. It will still be based on a Central Banking model, which means that system too will eventually fail. It's just how financial markets work. If you tried to create a static system, I'm not sure how it would work. Even societies based on Gold have never lasted. I do not believe that a perfect system exists. There will always be someone who will use the financial system for their own gain, even at the cost of hurting or killing others.

The Review: The audio book starts out with the author doing the intro. And if I had to choose between the author reading this or Jesse Boggs, I think I would have taken the author. Jesse does a fine job reading, but I think that Michael Lewis would have been better. Not sure why I always seem to like the author reading his own material.

It's a good read , if you're into Finance.
Rating 4/5

-B

Sunday, February 20, 2011

The Accidental Billionaires: The Founding of Facebook

The Accidental Billionaires: The Founding of Facebook

Written By: Ben Mezrich

Read by: Mike Chamberlain

Background: The Accidental Billionaires is the book the now hit movie "The Social Network" is based on. Ben Mezrich, based this book on a series of interviews with former Facebook founder Eduardo Saverin, Mark Zuckerberg declined to be interviewed for the book. This produces a very one sided story that many people that were actually there when this all happened say is highly fictionalized. 
I haven't seen the movie yet, and after reading the book, I'm not really sure how they transitioned this to the screen? It just doesn't seem like the type of material that transitions to the screen very well. However the story that is told is interesting, and if Saverin is to be believed it certainly makes me think that anyone that works for Facebook should never cross paths with Zuckerberg. He really goes out of his way to make Mark look like an ego-centric jerk. But a withdrawn and un-selfassured/socially awkward ego-centric jerk. Which is an interesting combination.
Mark Zuckerberg came up with the idea for an online website "Facebook" that originally was just for Harvard students since he was in his second year at Harvard. The term "Facebook" was taken from Harvard's own student information Database. Within Facebook's first year though it had expanded to Colleges all over the country. 
Probably the most interesting thing in the book is that Zuckerberg started "The Facebook" really without the intention of starting a business or making money. He really just wanted to make something that was really cool. The idea that it could make a lot of money came from Sean Parker, one of the former founders of Napster. Parker is the reason Facebook is just called Facebook. Mark had always called it, "The Facebook". I think this was Parker's biggest contribution to Facebook, at least according to Saverin, who seemingly was Parker's nemesis. Like many others, once Parker had used up his usefulness he was let go as well.

The Review: In general this was an ok book. The reading by Mike Chamberlain was well executed. It did seem very choppy though. You could tell Mezrich was short on sources because he really had to stretch to come up with a story. It would be very interesting indeed to hear Mark's side of the story. Though since he is such a seemingly guarded person, I doubt that a biography about him will be forth coming. Not for a long while at least.

Rating: I give this a 3 out of 5


-B

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Why We Get Fat: And what to do about it

Why We Get Fat: And what to do about it

Written By: Gary Taubes

Read By: Mike Chamberlain

Background: I recently watched a Documentary film on Hulu called "Fat Head". In it the filmmaker goes about trying to debunk alot of the claims that Morgan Spurlock made in his film "Super Size Me". Mainly that by eating at McDonalds 3 times a day, doesn't automatically make you fat and unhealthy. In the film , one of his main sources in explaining what makes us fat, he uses Gary Taubes first book "Good Calories, Bad Calories" which is a much more in depth and scientific book about what makes us fat. This book "Why We Get Fat", is aimed at the general public, and is shorter and more practical. And I liked it alot. 

First off, this is not a Diet book. Taubes doesn't give any recommended eating plans or recipes. He just explains in a very scientifically understandable way what really makes us humans prone to gaining weight. The answer, in short is, Carbohydrates. I wasn't completely surprised to learn this. After reading Michael Pollan's book "In Defense of Food", Pollan explains how the body almost instantly turns Carbs into Sugar upon entering your digestive system. I always wondered why people on Atkins lose so much weight and do it so fast. After reading "Why We Get Fat", now I know why. It's simply that some people's systems are more prone to producing more Insulin , and that slows down the metabolism which then tells the body to store fat instead of burning it for energy. That's the one sentence explanation. 


The more shocking parts of the book are when Taubes gives evidence for why working out and working out alot don't actually help people lose weight. According to Taubes , the only thing working out does is make you more hungry , which makes you eat more. Taubes posits that the old advice of "Calories in, Calories Out" just doesn't work or add up. So if you've ever started a work out program and NOT lost weight , there's your answer why. According to Taubes, the reason most people lose weight when working out is because working out tends to make people be more conscience of what and how much they are eating. In turn , they eat less, and by eating less, they eat less carbs and they lose weight. Makes sense right? 


Personally, I'm not sure about all of this. I've lost some weight over the last year , but it has stagnated for quite a few months. So, I'm going to give this a whirl and see if just by restricting or even lowering my carb intake will help me start burning fat again. 


The Review: When I first heard about this book I was instantly interested in it. For some reason I really get into Food Science books like this and Michael Pollan's. The book is laid out really well, and Taubes gives alot of interesting history on how Doctor's in the 20's and 30's treated Obesity. Overall I really enjoyed the book and found it very engaging and very listenable. Mike Chamberlain, the reader was good is his narration. He kept a steady pace, and never rushed through it. 


I recommend it.


Rating: 5 out of 5